A Constant

There's an itching in my veins,
a sudden lynching in my brain.
A burning in my heart
a loss and disarray.
Coming out to meet my friends
hidden all within the led
hot and pouring through
it's the itching in my veins.

Can you see the nimble way
in which we run away
can you feel the dire needs
often lost inside your head.
Out there beyond the way
we find them lost and bare
coming out of the woodwork
like maggots in her brain.

Complete with a how to
on loosing all your friends,
you can see there is no room for two
it's the last chance we had to bare.
Complete with a how to
on gaining all your weight
it's easy to say that you
would always be there.

There's an itching in my veins
and itching in my head.
There's loss of everything,
a cross of shades and stares.
Complete with your own how to
on creeping out the mare
it's not easy to stay true
when your soul is lost
a stray.

The Money Pit

It's all about having a good foundation. It's why I am the way I am with people, why I like to take things slow, why I like to know you. Why I take life slowly. It's all in the foundation.

Sleepless nights

Can't sleep. I feel tired, yet when I lay down my mind awakens with thought. I can't shake her stink out of my memory, one thinks it's over and that moving on is at hand, but there is nothing there but more memories and realizations of the things that happened between us. Who thought that such short time of interaction would leave such a mark. I hate it, and it makes me realized that I loved you.

Expulsion, delusion.

Maybe I've said this before,
I can't remember you that well anymore.
Your smile is a fuzz,
your eyes I don't even recall the color of,
the little things that you did
which entranced me so are memories left behind.
I feel like the fever has passed,
I've sweated you out.
Oh dear lover,
who I once pined over
contemplated loving forever with no second thoughts,
you have been expunged from me.
Now all that is left is a void.
I don't know how to explain it,
but you've gone
left a cavity behind
there is nothing that fits that obtuse shape
like that love that I felt
which was cursed from the begin
because I was unsure of what to say
unsure if you wanted it or not.
It all fell apart,
now we are but fading memories
yet all I wanted all along
was to be someone you couldn't forget
someone to fill my heart
someone to be entranced with.