Flutter

Smoked my last cigarette
sleepy but not tired
dead but still awake
it's all on how you look at it
maybe I'll get another pack tomorrow
maybe I'll wake up and feel alive
maybe I'll stop living
in a wonderland
where a kiss is meaningful
and lovers still exist.
I really don't want to though
I'd like to live in fantasy
waiting for that one person
who will make my heart burst
just by having them near me.